what am i jealous of? well first off. people who have a voice. I'm sick and i wish i just had a voice... but i don't. I'm also jealous of other girls who look gorgeous and have all the guys around them and have good grades. but me, i just don't care. i don't care to do my make up, I don't care about school. but I really wish i did. after that I'm jealous of people who can talk to others. I personally am not a people person. I don't like to interact with strangers and make new friends. but i wish i did. I could get a job as a sales person and make more money or i could have more friends and things to do on weekends. but i don't. I guess what I'm getting after is I wish i wasn't me. i wish i had a different life, in someone Else's shoes. I guess I'm saying I'm not happy with myself. but I wish i was. i really wish i was.

420

I cant think of a more perfectly way to word it because it all just fits together. and it sounds like a river flowing out of my mouth its heavenly just say it. I'm getting higher by the moments i remember or maybe its not the memories its the imagination just think about it. can you picture it? i can. bring me back down bring me back down to life. I'm getting away. higher and higher. watch me. there i go I'm gone its perfect. I'm gone.Its perfect I'm way up here bet you cant catch me. i go higher. watch the world falling backwards. you all simply fade away. you're upside down, how does it feel? i cant think of a more perfectly way to word if because it all just fits together. it feels like a river flowing off my tongue so heavenly so heavenly please let me fall higher so heavenly.

were the same

We have the same craving soul, same dying mind.
The same spirited love, same love that’s been denied.
We both look up at the same dark sky.
Both letting a wasted life slide by

Both been turned against
A world of sorrow to be commenced
Deliver us into our fate
If were alone we cannot hate

Please let us find each other still
Its love and its real
Don’t let me be alone
the pain is yet to be known

the man

Your the man God knew I needed. Your the man God sent to me. Your the man God counted on. Your the man that God did flee. The only man left there alone. Your the man whom God heard your plea. Your the man God sent to rescue me. You set and bled there just for me. Please forgive me God, I could not see. But now I can be what you want me to be. For I know the man you sent to me...

what am I?

i am a tiger... i think. i could be a turtle but that's not likely, maybe even a shellfish but that's only because i am selfish. i sat on a mattress today and thought.... what if i was a mattress? what would that be like? some think i am an alien, but then again what does an alien think you are?

im thinking about you

im thinking about you like the sun thinks about beaches
im thinking about you like geeks think about math
im thinking about you like Australians think about stake
im thinking about you like rich people think about money
like poor people think about money
im thinking about you like a mermaid thinks about land
im thinking about you like Pinocchio thinks about real boys
im thinking about you like fat people think about cake
like skinny people think about cake
im thinking about you like virgins think about...
im thinking about you like Eminem thinks about weed
like children think about M&M's
im thinking about you like Microsoft thinks about apple
im thinking about you like the president thinks about black people
im thinking about you like fire thinks about ice
and ice thinks about fire
like love thinks about fire.
im simply thinking about you

A cold realization

it's cold inside my lonely head
it's cold in here I say
it's cold from inside to the out
I think I'll run away
I can't run away from here
I'm trapt inside my head
my mind is dead and gone away
so heavy and grey as led

I run and run and run some more
but stuck in here I stay
so lost so dead and so confused
my thoughts I can't betray
I'll start at one
then two then three
I'll battle night and day
untill there's nothing left but me

my trials far from gone
it's always cold in here
but that's okay, I know it is
I've nothing left to fear
I get it now I promise you
I've got a plan you see
we can sit and stay here
because it's destiny

and lost your not
you know your way
created you this place
please visit soon and don't delay
your mind, you alone must face

so journey on
inside my mind
unlock it's last trapt door
the secrets lay inside I'll find
and live with them once more.